Saturday, February 27, 2010

Sometimes I feel alone

I feel like no one really knows what I'm going through. No one knows this kind of pain, but then I'm reminded of my new friends that I've met because of Aidan's passing.  They've gone through similar losses and are still waiting for answers. I also have my parents who lost twin boys when my mom was 6 months pregnant. We didn't talk much about Matthew or Francis (he is a jr so I'm not going to post my dad's full name) growing up. They are my sister's younger brothers and my older brothers.  Even though I don't know them, I talk to them regularly and ask them to take good care of their nephew.

I know that all of us will be okay and one day soon we'll have our healthy babies in our arms. Love you : Mom, Jillian's mommy, Mary's mommy, Katie's mommy, Olivia's mommy, Hudson's mommy, Nolan's mommy, Lilah's mommy and all the mom's to angel babies.

I love you Aidan Christopher



  1. Hi Maggs,

    I know how hard it is when no one IRL understands what you're going through ((HUGS)). I think of you and all of the other angel mommies often. It brings me comfort to picture all of our little angels up in heaven, playing together and smiling down on their mommies.



  2. Maggs,

    I won't say I know how you feel because I don't. I wish there was something I could do to remove the pain you are going through but I can't. I will let you know that you are never alone. We are all here for you and love you. Trust in God Maggs he will help you through this.

    Love ya girl!

  3. Maggie,

    You're right, I can't say I know how you feel. I can't even imagine the pain. But you are not alone in your love for Aidan. He will always be in our hearts and memory.


  4. Maggs,
    I DO know this isolation you are feeling. I've been living it for 2 years after I lost my daughter at 39 weeks. there are good days, bad days and sometimes you just have to take one at a time. If you ever want to chat my bump name is gigi_rafael or feel free to read my blog- (which i've not been so good at keeping up with these days)
    my thoughts & prayers are with you. God Bless

  5. I'm sorry Maggie, I wish I knew what to say. I can't even begin to imagine how you feel right now. I've had times in my life when I've been hurting and feeling all alone but I'm sure it's nowhere near what you're feeling now. I hope that you are able to find comfort today, and that you are feeling a little better now.

  6. i am only 9months out from losing McKenzie at 32wks 6days, so all i can offer is big ((HUGS))

  7. Hey Maggs, I can totally identify with this feeling. There have been MANY nights over the past few months where I've felt so isolated, but going online and reading posts from all of you makes me feel less alone. My mom also lost her first baby, Katie, when she was about 37 weeks pregnant. We didn't really talk about her much while we were growing up either.. but we do now. I don't think anyone really talked to my mom much about her, so I think it makes her feel good to have someone finally asking her questions. I commented the other day on how awesome your mom seems. I'm sure it has something to do with being able to understand your pain in the way that only a mama who has lost her babies can.

    Oh, and love you too :)
    - Olivia's Mommy :)

  8. Maggie,
    I wish we all weren't here chatting...none of us. But if we have to do it alone, I would rather do it with people that would be doing it alone too. I am so glad we all have met some way, not for the reason obviously but for the support.
    Did any of that make sense?

    Lots of hugs Maggie

  9. Love you too girl...and am here for you anytime.

    (Marys Mommy) :)