I was absolutely terrified as we got closer to the hospital. It felt like a big scary building that was going to eat us up. Yes I watch far too much Cartoon Network. When I told Chris that he said hun, it's the place where we got to meet and get to know Aidan for 8 great days. Yeah....I love that guy! We passed Dr. O'Donnell's office, Aidan's neurologist. Part of me wanted to stop by and say hi, but we had things to do people to see. I was afraid that there was going to be a bazillion happy glowing pregnant woman in the waiting room, but there was only one other couple there. I think she was newly pregnant, she just had that look.
Dr B told us that all of my tests have come back negative. Which is good, but I wish we had answers as to why this happened. I go back in 3 weeks for my 6 weeks postpartum and I will get an u/s to make sure everything is healed. We'll also discuss what our steps will be in our next pregnancy and I'll get more blood tests. Hormones can alter the results, so why did I get stabbed in the arm 80 bazillion times while I was in the hospital? She still doesn't have the results of the autopsy, but she's going to call Dr. H, Aidan's dr, to talk to him and see if he has any results. She told us that we can start trying to conceive again in 6 months. She did tell me when I can go back to work, but I need to talk to my boss and HR before posting that on here.
She cried with us and is impressed with our attitudes and strength. When we started talking about the next pregnancy she said that it will probably be scary and I just said we have Aidan as our guardian angel this time. We also stopped at the NICU and I got to see Amber, the nurse that we had the day we found out that Aidan wasn't going to make it. While she was Aidan's nurse, she took care of me too. It was really nice to see her!
We also went and ordered Aidan's grave marker. We got Our Baby Aidan Christopher lastname Feb 1, 2010- Feb 9, 2010. There is an emblem of "In God's Hands" We went to put the temporary marker down and saw that my in-laws had been there. His mom got the book Goodnight Moon and covered Moon with Aidan. They love us so much and most importantly they love their grandson.
I love you Aidan Christopher
Maggs
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You should be so proud of how well you have handled this. You are absolutely amazing and you and Chris are lucky to have each other.
ReplyDeleteKristin Baldock
You and Chris are an inspiration to so many. I'm thrilled to call you my daughter.
ReplyDeleteIm so hapy you were able to see his nurse again today. :) And I LOVE the Goodnight Moon book that they left and had his name on it. so sweet.
ReplyDeleteThat is all such great news Maggs. I know I already told you on thebump but I wanted to say it again. :)
ReplyDeleteI am also amazed at your strength through all of this. You have gone through someone nobody should ever have to go through, yet you have such an amazing outlook. You are truly an inspiration for others who have gone through losing a child and other who haven't. Rock on Woman!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you were able to see Aidan's nurse again. I'm sorry you didn't get all the answers you wanted, though. That was really sweet of your MIL to alter that book for you :) You're amazingly strong, Maggie.
ReplyDeleteMaggs,
ReplyDeleteI just want you to know that I think about you and Chris everyday and pray for God to heal you both. You are an amazingly strong person! We miss you and look forward to seeing you when you come back to work
Luann