The services

I'll start with Friday's burial service. My in-laws picked us up and I was fine during the car ride to the cemetery. When we started getting closer I could feel the tears starting. Then I saw the tent that was up and I lost it. I've always hated seeing the tents because I knew someone was being buried and when I saw it up for Aidan it was 10 times worse.

There were 4 chairs sitting in front of his little casket. Chris and I were lead to the chairs before the rest of the family so that we could have some alone time. I once again started talking to Aidan like it was the most normal thing to do. For me it is though, I talk to him every morning and every night. It feels right to me and that's what important. The funeral director said that he normally doesn't do it, but offered to let us put two roses in Aidan's casket. We accepted and I held my breath while he opened the casket. I was sure that seeing Aidan in the hospital would be the last time I saw him so I was nervous. When it was open and I saw my little boy it put a smile on my face. He was wearing a very sweet elephant outfit and wrapped up in a blanket.

The service was about 10 minutes long and after wards we went to my in-laws because I didn't want to be alone.

Saturday's service was hard for me. I've kept myself pretty secluded since we found out the severity of the bleed in Aidan's head. I kept people out of the hospital and I haven't seen people since Aidan was 2 days old. I also haven't shown very many pictures of Aidan and I had a few there and it made me nervous. There were so many people there to support us and it was amazing. Most of those people were there because they love us, but most importantly they all love Aidan even though they didn't get to meet him. Aidan really did touch many lives and helped rebuild bridges to a few relationships. Our best friends from Ohio came and of course they brought their 4 month old, Bryson. Seeing Bryson helped me so much and while it was bitter sweet to meet him this way I'm so happy that they could come.

The service lasted about 30 minutes and was perfect. Aidan's name was said a bunch and that makes me so happy. After the service a small group of us went to the cemetery and then to my in-laws. It was really nice to spend that time with friends and family. After everyone left I was talking to Chris and his parents and I told them that since the services are over that I'm afraid people are going to forget Aidan. I was reminded that I talk about him all the time and that will prevent people from forgetting about him. Chris also reminded me that all of my plans for donations, volunteering and fundraisers for the March of Dimes in Aidan's name will make sure the his name is said forever.

Thank you to all of our friends and family for all of your support. We still need it and I know that we will get it unconditionally. We love you so much for that!

I love you Aidan Christopher!

Maggs