Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Myrtle Beach

We packed our bags last Friday night, set the alarm for 4:30 and hit the road at 5 am to drive 13 hours to Myrtle Beach, SC. We had an amazing time and Lucas LOVED the ocean. He loved to "run" to it and stomp in the water. He was sick though and it was pretty obvious. He would play for about 30 minutes and then sleep for a couple of hours. The ocean air did help him though and he came home feeling better. We rented chairs and an umbrella every day and it was perfect. I laid out while Chris and Lucas napped. I'm going to post the pictures in a series of posts or else blogger land might blow up at the enormous amount of pictures. I'm going to start with our road trip taken with my iPhone.

Look out point in TN

 Almost there!

 First glimpse of the ocean. "I see it, I see it"
 View from our room

Yes the pictures posted weird and I don't want to try to fix them. :-) More to come!

I love you Aidan Christopher and Lucas Alexander


Road trip

We're heading to south Carolina for a few days to hit the beach. I've never been there before. My parents took me and my sister on a long car trip while I was still in diapers (they put off diaper training to make the trip easier). I don't have any memory of the trip, but I'm so excited to be doing the same thing with Lucas. Our trip is 13 hours and we left at 5:15 am. Hopefully Lucas handles the trip well.

*Originally written on 6/16

Sunday, June 10, 2012

Best story

Last night I stopped to see my friend Nicki (we've been friends since 6th grade) for her 30th birthday. Original plan was to go duck pin bowling as she was pregnant. Well pre-e decided to change the plans and her beautiful baby boy was born at 34w2d. She had been in the hospital for a few days so they were able to give her both rounds of steroid shots. So he's doing very well in the NICU, same place where Aidan was.  We were talking and she told me the best story that I've heard in a very long time. She said "I was telling Aidan's story today and the nurse in the room said Aidan? as in Chris and Maggie's Aidan?" My heart started racing trying to figure out who it could have been. I thought Ingrid or Christi or Natalie. I know it's not Amber because she's at home on maternity leave after finally bringing home her beautiful daughters from Africa. Nicki tells me the nurse is Jan. Jan was with Aidan for ONE night and she still remembers him a little over 2 years later!. That made my heart so incredibly happy and I teared up a lot little. She went on to tell Nicki that Aidan was a special little boy and that she loved taking care of him. She remembers.....it means the world to me that she remembers. I know that the other nurses that I mentioned above do because I keep in contact with them through FB, but the nurse who saw him 1 night remembers. Hopefully you are getting goosebumps by this point or else I haven't articulated (big word, 10 points) the true magnitude of the amazing cloud I was on when I heard the story last night. Pretty great night. I got to see my friend that I've been very worried about, got to hear how little D is doing and that amazing story.

Speaking of D (I'm not going to post his name until I get the okay from Nicki) I get to meet him today. I'm so excited to meet him and so terrified of going back to the NICU. I have to go back though since I'm going to be volunteering up there. I'm glad that my first time going back for something happy. I'm not happy that D was born early due to the pre-e, but I'm very happy that he's doing so well.

I'm not going to lie, I'm terrified of going back. Just sitting here thinking about it has made me kinda light headed and dizzy. My bereavement coordinator is going to take me up there so that if/when I break down she will be there. I know my friend will totally understand, but she has a lot going on right now and I don't want to burden her with my break down. I let you know how it went when I get home.

I love you Aidan Christopher and I love being reminded frequently that you are not forgotten. As long as I'm alive, you will NEVER be forgotten! Lucas Alexander... I love you, you crazy little goof ball!


Friday, June 1, 2012

What a little over 25lbs of weight loss looks like

5/18/11- I was 3 months pp
I took the last picture today in the same shirt I wore for the first one. Yes, I planned that this morning since it's a little cooler today. While I know from the scale there is a difference, it didn't feel like it. Well now I have proof that yes, in fact, my body is changing. I'm so happy with this and so motivated to keep going. I'm in the middle of week 4 for the C25k challenge. I have to say it, I hate running. I hate it because it's hard and I want to give up, but I can't. I always give up on my work out plans and I really want to follow through with this. My boss is a runner and he's been asking me if I ran the night before. That has been helping while I push through this hatred of running. Maybe when I finish and I know that I can run a 5k, I'll enjoy it. I do enjoy the benefits of how I'm getting toned. I can actually feel my stomach muscles all the way around. For having 2 c/s, that's pretty awesome. :-) 

I love you Aidan Christopher and Lucas Alexander