Tuesday, March 16, 2010

100th post and update from my dr appointment

On my other blog that I was writing while trying to get pregnant with Aidan I was so excited for my 100th post. The post was announcing that I was pregnant. Well this post isn't like that.  I canceled that blog, so mom don't go looking for it. :-)

I just got back from my 6 week postpartum check up. I look good and everything is healing properly. I've been cleared to exercise and I lost 2 lbs since last week (which I already knew) The final autopsy isn't in yet or Dr. H hasn't called Dr. B to go over it. She's going to call him this week to talk about my case a little more.  I asked if they knew when the bleed happened. Dr. B isn't 100 % certain, but she thinks Aidan had a stroke in utero. She's not sure if the stress from the cord failing could have caused the possible stroke.  I don't know if we'll ever know if he had a stroke though. 

I asked if flying to Vegas could have caused the stress and she reminded me that I didn't do anything wrong. Before the 28 wk appointment she said that I had a picture perfect pregnancy. I'll get the blood work done tomorrow and then have another appointment to go over everything. For right now I just need to keep taking my prenatals and I might have to take an additional folic acid pill, but we'll find out after the blood work results. She also told me that if I'm not pregnant 3-4 months after we start trying to come in and she'll run more tests. I'll be seeing her primarily still and I'll start to be monitored more closely after I get into the 2nd trimester. I already knew this, but I'll be having scheduled c-sections for all future pregnancies and if everything is going smoothly then it will be scheduled between 37-39 weeks.

So that's where we're at. I'm doing okay emotionally now, but I wasn't right after the appointment. It's hard to hear that I didn't do anything wrong and that he possibly had a stroke, but it's nice to possibly have an answer.

I love you Aidan Christopher and I miss you lots!



  1. Mag- My heart still goes out for you, you did nothing wrong! You are a wonderful mother to Aidan. And you will be a wonderful mother to your future children. I hope you get some better answers at your next appointment.

  2. I'm glad your appointment went well today. It's great that you have a plan set up with the doctor.

  3. It is never easy to hear that there is nothing you could have done different. I still think about it (Gavin was 7 wks premie) and it has been almost 2 years, and wonder what i could have changed. You sound like you are doing better and have a great support system. I am thinking about you guys!! Just remember you are a great mom!!

  4. I hope that you're able to get more answers soon. I'm glad that your appointment went relatively well. :)

  5. I just saw this on the bump and decided to read your blog. I'm sorry for your loss. Your story is heartbreaking:(