Monday, November 22, 2010
Head to heels, your baby now measures about 13 1/2 inches. His weight — a pound and a half — isn't much more than an average rutabaga, but he's beginning to exchange his long, lean look for some baby fat. As he does, his wrinkled skin will begin to smooth out and he'll start to look more and more like a newborn. He's also growing more hair — and if you could see it, you'd now be able to discern its color and texture.
Can I just say that I hate that it's November 22nd and I'm wearing a t-shirt today. Come on cold weather! Things are going good on the baby front. I feel great, he kicks all the time and we've been playing push and punch. I push on my belly and he punches me. Is that mom abuse? lol
Emotionally I'm getting worse. I'm getting closer to when Aidan was born (gestationally) and it's hard. People have commented oh well you're bigger now so that should help. Yeah no, I measured right on with Aidan and I'm bigger this time because Nugget is my second. I feel amazing and I felt that with Aidan too so that doesn't give me any confidence. It does help that Nugget is already pretty chunky and we'll find out tomorrow how much weight he's gained in the past 2 weeks. Hopefully he has gained a lot and that's why my weight will be so astounding. :-) I'm not stressing or even getting worked up, but I'm finding it harder and harder to tell people that I'm doing good. I just want to tell everyone that I'm scared, but who wants to hear that? People (those who know my history, but I've never been open with them about it) want to hear how wonderful pregnancy is.
This is so similar and yet so different from grieving. People would ask how I was and if we were close I'd be honest with them and if we're not it would just be a simple fine. Now when I tell people I'm scared, some of them have told me that I need to get over it. Throw those people back into the pile of those that I'm not close with. Thankfully I have an amazing support system and they are just pat me on the head and tell me I'm not crazy. That's all I ask, you don't have to agree with me, just don't tell me I'm crazy. lol Okay so that's all
I love you Aidan Christopher and Nugget!