So we had a different type of Father’s Day yesterday. The joys of being in this awful club is fighting back tears while eating breakfast because we hear “Happy fadders day daddy, we lub you!” Or seeing the glowing daddy’s while they are enjoying their first fathers day. Now we were with one of those glowing first father’s day daddy’s, but it wasn’t painful for us. He knows our story and knows how much we’re hurting. Heck he and his wife are still hurting as they lost a nephew. I was fearing this day because of the obvious and that I didn’t want to “ruin” Dave’s first father’s day. We had a good time and I got to show Michelle all of Aidan’s pictures. We just sat and stared at each picture for 5 minutes each. Plus I got to play with Bryson. Seriously, one of the cutest babies! Overall, it wasn’t as bad as I was expecting it to be. I know that we’ll have “Happy” Father’s Day in the future, but we’ll always have a boy missing. We’ll always have someone missing in our family pictures. I do plan on having something frog related in pictures so that way Aidan will be there, but it’s still not the same. It’s not okay, but it’s okay it’s the reality.
Hi sweetie. I hope you know how much mommy and daddy miss you! Daddy was sad yesterday because he misses you, but he’s so happy that he got to meet you and have so many special memories with you. We were talking in the car about changing your diaper and how much we laughed while we struggled with the wires. Aida, daddy would have taught you so much. He would have played catch with you, kicked the soccer ball around and been your # 2 cheerleader with everything that you would do. Mommy of course being your # 1 cheerleader. :-) We love you so much sweetie and want you here so badly.
Love you babycakes
Happy Father’s Day to the most selfless, amazing and caring daddy!