So today is my 27th birthday and I have to say that I’m sad to see 26 go. I had a pretty good year. Getting pregnant with Aidan was one of the best things in my life. Those 7 months with him in my belly were the best months, they don’t even touch the 8 days with him. Yes the outcome was the worst outcome that no one should have to have go through, but I’m so lucky and thankful for him. In my 26th year of life I realized the amount of love that I could have for someone I had never met, I realized what my parent’s went through with their losses, I found out what it was like for my mom to have me (she had a c-section too) and most importantly I met Aidan. Some would think that I would be glad to see 26 go since we lost Aidan, but meeting him changed me. I focus on meeting him.
I have some very exciting news…no I’m not pregnant. We’re not ready, but my news is that this is the first event where I was not panicked before hand. I’m normally counting down the days until my birthday. This year, eh, not so much. I’ve been uber busy at work and kind of not paying attention to the calendar. I was sad last night because the only thing that I want for my birthday I can’t have. I want Aidan, in his body here with me. When I woke up this morning I had 5 bazillion messages on facebook and that made me really good. At this point I think I have 80 bazillion messages. Makes me feel pretty dang loved.
I love you Aidan Christopher and I hope you like the flowers that I brought out to you! Funny, it’s mommy’s birthday and she brings you flowers.