I’ve been dreading this day for the past week. Mostly because of the non-stop commercials. Now that it’s here it’s not that bad. I wish that today would have started with Chris getting up and taking care of Aidan while I slept in. Instead Chris is still asleep and I’ve been up since 8. I was so worried that I would be forgotten today because I don’t have an earth baby. I may not have an earth baby, but I still got to take care of my baby. I got hold Aidan’s hand, give him milk on a q-tip, change his diaper, take his temperature and give him massages. I read him stories, sang him songs and loved on him. I got to rock him, rub his back kiss his head and tell him that I love him. I did something that all mom’s do. I made the best decision for him even though it was the worst decision for me. I was able to hold him as he took his last breaths and we were the last thing he saw before he passed. I woke up this morning and had a lot of messages on facebook wishing me a happy mother’s day and that means a lot to me.
I’m part of another message board and we had a gift exchange. My person sent me a beautiful necklace and my favorite candy, Riesen chocolate chews.
The necklace says Hope and has a dove on it. I love it!
My mom and I spent the day together yesterday and before I left she gave me these..
And to think, I was afraid that I would be forgotten. I feel very blessed.
So Happy Mother’s day to all the moms, moms-to-be and moms to angels. If you know someone that has had a loss at any time, please take the time today and send them a message.
I love you Aidan Christopher and I’m so happy that I’m your mom and you’re my son!