I’ve been dreading this day for the past week. Mostly because of the non-stop commercials. Now that it’s here it’s not that bad. I wish that today would have started with Chris getting up and taking care of Aidan while I slept in. Instead Chris is still asleep and I’ve been up since 8. I was so worried that I would be forgotten today because I don’t have an earth baby. I may not have an earth baby, but I still got to take care of my baby. I got hold Aidan’s hand, give him milk on a q-tip, change his diaper, take his temperature and give him massages. I read him stories, sang him songs and loved on him. I got to rock him, rub his back kiss his head and tell him that I love him. I did something that all mom’s do. I made the best decision for him even though it was the worst decision for me. I was able to hold him as he took his last breaths and we were the last thing he saw before he passed. I woke up this morning and had a lot of messages on facebook wishing me a happy mother’s day and that means a lot to me.
The girls on my local message board sent my flowers. It was very unexpected and very much appreciated.
I’m part of another message board and we had a gift exchange. My person sent me a beautiful necklace and my favorite candy, Riesen chocolate chews.
The necklace says Hope and has a dove on it. I love it!
My mom and I spent the day together yesterday and before I left she gave me these..
And to think, I was afraid that I would be forgotten. I feel very blessed.
So Happy Mother’s day to all the moms, moms-to-be and moms to angels. If you know someone that has had a loss at any time, please take the time today and send them a message.
I love you Aidan Christopher and I’m so happy that I’m your mom and you’re my son!
Maggie
Thinking about you lots today. Happy Mothers Day.
ReplyDeleteHappy Mothers Day! No matter what, you will always be Aidan's Mommy!
ReplyDeleteToday at church the priest did a blessing to all the moms and he made sure to mention moms who have lost a child. I thought of you :) Happy Mother's Day!!
ReplyDeleteHappy Mother's Day Maggie! I'm so glad today wasn't as hard as you thought it would be.
ReplyDeleteps: LOVE the new look of the blog. :)
I love the new look of the blog, maggie! Who took that picture? It's beautiful!
ReplyDeleteYou are a wonderful mommy. Happy Mother's Day!
I just wanted to say - the names I did the first time, like Aidan's, were at a different time of day and on a busier part of the beach, so they have footprints and other "flaws" in the sand. I was going to re-do them when I found the smoother beach and ran out of time so I couldn't. But in retrospect I LOVE the ones that have the "flaws" - they look so full of live and love, it's like the baby is a part of life and the world. I don't know if that makes sense when I write it out, but thought I'd try to share the thought even if it doesn't come across right. :)
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