Monday, January 4, 2010

Update from the Dr and some thoughts

I'm measuring 24 1/2 weeks which is right on target.  Little dude's heart rate was 160 and Dr. B was very pleased with that. He kicked/punched the doppler and she asked if I heard that thud. I was like yeah and felt it too. lol  I only gained 2 lbs this month which is amazing! I ate sooooooooo much this past month. She asked how I did it and honestly I have no clue. I feel like I ate my weight in steak and rolls at Texas Roadhouse on Saturday night.

Next appointment is Feb 1st and then I start going every 2 weeks.  My next appointment is the dreaded glucose test to see if I have gestational diabetes.  I also have an u/s that morning since little dude was way too active at my 20 week appointment to get all of his measurements.

I've been having mild anxiety attacks since New Years Day. I keep freaking out and being worried that I won't be emotionally or mentally prepared for him. I know that Chris and I will be "stuff" ready for him, but I'm worried I won't be a good mom.  Someone asked on my message board what our favorite memory of 2009 was. Almost everyone answered having the baby or finding out they were pregnant. While that's one of my top memories, my favorite was going to Ireland and that makes me feel like I'm going to be a bad mom.  I know it's normal to have these worries, but I'm usually not a worrier and pretty laid back. I feel a huge connection to him, but I think I have a wall up with my emotions and being afraid to be in love with him now. I guess because I know the reality of having a healthy baby is right up there with a miracle and until he's out I think I'm keeping myself guarded.

So there is my long sob story and feel a little better getting it out there. I'll do my 25 week update when I get back from Vegas on Tuesday.

24wks 4d pg.

1 comment:

  1. You are not a bad Mom! I think Ireland would be at the top of my list too!