Tuesday, May 1, 2012


I went to the dentist yesterday. The last time I was there I was about 26w pregnant with Aidan. I got to the office and sitting in the waiting room I was fine. I actually hadn't prepared like I normal do. As in over think everything. He was running late and I was catching up on People magazine and I was finally called back. I sat in the chair and all of the memories rushed back. They wouldn't x-ray me because I was pregnant and so when she laid the protective sheet over me I just lost it. They were super supportive and kept telling me I was okay, rubbing my back and giving me tissues. Then the dentist walked in and was like why are you crying? I haven't even started working on you yet. That made me smile. They all asked for Aidan's story which I proudly told after the appointment and because my inlaws go there, they asked about Lucas.

I realized last night when I was thinking about writing this post that I'm not doing it to get sympathy, but to show other BLM's that while life has gotten easier my grief hasn't. I'm in a much better place now than I was 2 years ago, but I still hit milestones and I know that I will forever. I know this because I have chosen to not let Aidan's memory go silent.

Oh and after my appointment, I went an chopped off like 5-6 in of hair. I weighed myself this morning and I lost 1/2 lb from yesterday. That's a lot of hair.

I love you Aidan Christopher and Lucas Alexander!



  1. I'm sorry you had a hard time at the dentist :(

    You look great! :D