Jelly/3peat is...

So I'm 20 weeks and feeling great! I'm up about 14lbs on my scale (dr's says 16lbs)and baby is moving and grooving a lot! My braxton hicks contractions started early again this time, around 16w, but other than those smooth sailing. Well minus my anxiety, but I now go to the dr every 2 weeks so I won't really have time for anymore anxiety.Here is my 20 week belly picture. As I posted last time, our work bathroom got renovated!

3peat has a new nickname now. My work BFF is pregnant and due 2 months after me. I've known the whole time (just like she's known about me the whole time), but I couldn't say why I changed 3peat's nickname. I call her fetus Peanut Butter so it's only fitting that mine is Jelly. Plus I call Lucas peanut butter so it would be weird to call the baby that too. 

Here is our little Jelly...

Oh and drumroll please. Jelly is.......

 Yup, it's true! I finally get my little girl! She had her booty in the air showing off her goods and the tech said 100% girl. Thankfully I have so many more u/s to confirm, but I saw right away that she's a girl. As always, she won't have a name until she's born. She does however have lots of clothes coming!

Even with our tragic loss of Aidan, we are so blessed to have our two boys and our little girl. 

I love you Aidan Christopher, Lucas Alexander and Little miss Jelly!

Maggs
 

A lot has been happening

Every day I think about blogging, but I don't know what to write about. This blog was such a huge help for the early stages of grieving. It was a huge help getting through the anxiety of being pregnant after a loss and now it's just hanging out getting cobwebs. I primarily use facebook to update family on how Lucas is doing so I don't feel the need to blog as much.

I should though since it did help me with the anxiety of being pregnant after a loss with Lucas. My anxiety this time is much higher! With Aidan we lost hopes and dreams, but we didn't know what it was like to be parents. Now we do and we know even more of what we'll lose if something happens. I've only made one additional appointment because my anxiety was awful. Then the following week for a regular appointment, Dr. B had a hard time finding the heart beat. She found it eventually and it is nice and strong, but that hasn't helped my anxiety at all.

This pregnancy seems to be flying by! I'm 17 weeks already and have a nice size bump. We find out the baby's sex on 4/22 (18 days, but who is counting?) I'm almost done being a normal pregnant lady and start moving into the office. Hopefully that will help my anxiety too.

Here's the last picture of my work bathroom looking like this. We have new bathrooms now!

 I love you Aidan Christopher, Lucas Alexander and Jelly 

Maggie