Wordless Wednesday

Added a poll

I have an u/s next Tuesday and we're going to have the tech take a looksee. So put in your guess as to what parts Nugget has.

Chinese gender chart says boy
Old wives tale H/B above 160 says girl
So far it looks like I'm carrying the same way that I did with Aidan

Maggs

halfway to Aidan

Today I am 14w2d, halfway to 28w4d.  I don't know how I feel about this. I truly have no idea what my feelings are. All I know is that Nugget is halfway to when Aidan was born.

I love you Aidan Christopher and my little Nug!

Maggs

I'm not ready

Some stores this week are having huge baby sales. While in our opinion it's too early to be buying stuff, I'm not ready. I'm afraid. I'm afraid of having more baby stuff in our house. I spent a lot of time in Aidan's room looking at his stuff and that helped, but I don't want more yet. I'm terrified of looking forward to the future too much. The furthest I've gotten is St. Patrick's day and that scares me.
I hate feeling this way. I hate being so afraid of "stuff." I've been pretty calm about everything pregnancy wise, but not so much about this. I know that I need to continue working on this, especially because one of my BFF's showers is coming up in a few months. I still feel guilty about the shower I couldn't go to at the end of February. The mom never made me feel like that and has been totally supportive. So it's just one more thing to add to the list of things to keep working on.

I love you Aidan Christopher and I promise, you're brother or sister won't go running around naked because of my fears.
Maggs

A dream about Aidan

The only dream that I've had involving Aidan was the one a few months ago. It was the white light telling me that Aidan is okay. I've been waiting for the night where I would see Aidan in my dreams.  Well last night was my first dream involving him. We had been told that if he survived that he would have some mental delays and possibly some physical ones. In my dream we were back at the hospital to visit Aidan. When we got there I was told that we could take him home that day. When we saw him, he was huge! He had the body of an early teenager, but I remember thinking he was just born in February. He was able to talk to us and knew who we were. He did have some disabilities, but of course that didn't matter to us. What mattered is that we were going to be able to take him home. Aidan had pictures hanging in his room that he drew saying I love mommy and daddy. He also drew a picture of Snoopy.  It melted my heart. After we said goodbye to all of his nurses we finally wheeled him out of the hospital. We got home and then I woke up.

I was sad when I woke up, but a lot of me was so happy to have a dream about him. Albeit it was a little weird.

I love you Aidan Christopher and I miss you so much!
Maggs

13 wks

Your fetus is forming teeth and vocal cords... savor this, their non-functional phase. Baby is approaching normal proportions, with a head now only one third the size of the body. Intestines are in the process of moving from the umbilical cord to baby's tummy. (Much more convenient.)

About momma


How far along? 13w5d pg

Total weight gain/loss: 6lbs

Maternity clothes? I'm wearing maternity pants

Stretch marks? Just the tiger stripes from Aidster

Sleep: Love it and getting as much as I can

Best moment this week: Hearing nugget on the dopplar 164 beats per minute

Movement: I think I felt some flutters, but I have no idea.

Food cravings: steak or anything that someone mentions

Gender: I'm thinking boy, but everyone is thinking girl

Belly Button in or out? in

What I miss: Nothing and I won't miss anything besides Aidan.

What I am looking forward to: Our next u/s on 9/14


Milestones: I'm in the 2nd trimester now

I love you Aidan Christopher and your sibling Nugget


Maggs
13w5d

7 months

Aidster,

Hi baby boy. I miss you! Well that's an obvious along with how much mommy and daddy love you! Nothing new is really happening with us, well not that it's new to you because I talk to you all the time.  I'm getting better emotionally bud. I haven't cried in a couple of weeks because I'm constantly happy when I think of you. I can't believe how quickly this month has gone by. I feel like I just wrote to you on your 6 monthday. I have more to write, but I'm not ready to yet. Again, you already know, I'm just not ready to write it down.

I love you so much sweetheart. Not a days goes by that I don't think about you!

Love,
Mommy